These Dreams Go On When I Close My Eyes, Every Second of the Night, I Live Another Life

The band Heart said it best. I actually have PTSD from the Coronavirus, and I am not kidding. Every night, my dreams are either centered around Coronavirus or have that as a weird inject. For example, last night I had this dream where I was in a stadium at a major sporting event and the game was like football, only it had letters that had to do with corona and how far the ball moved. I have been telling Doc every morning that once again, I had a corona dream, and he said that this is a hallmark of PTSD. He has told me that I have woken him by yelling and crying "COVID !! No COVID !!".  So how do those poor people on the front lines stand it? I am just over worked and continually stressed (personally and professionally) but I don't even go near the patients. I just hope that I get over this, because it is here to stay, and I need to deal. Ugh.

So let's get back to happier things - Doc, my little house, my dogs, and my love of fashion. Way back on April 16th, this is what I wore.

These are very old Express knit pants, with a pink jacket and a green chiffon blouse. I created this outfit so that I could wear a Gucci scarf that I ordered for my birthday. It came about a month later. It's huge, like all Gucci scarves.

The next day was panther day - black slacks, a black velvet top with a leopard collar, and black booties. Grrr.

That weekend, as I was running, I saw this very intrepid squirrel try to get food out of the bird feeder.  He succeeded, and apparently likes to eat upside down.

He must have cleaned that feeder out, because the people who live in this house have not filled it up again. They are really nice old hippies.


On Monday, April 20th, I was too tired to iron, so I wore a knit dress from Taylor with a jacket from Bob Mackie Wearable Art. I look okay, but I was a mess inside. I have worked every day for at least a month, even on my "days off". It has been relentless.

The next day, the Fountain Valley Police and Fire came by the hospital to visit and share camaraderie with us here at the hospital. I wore a pale gray satin tunic and a snakeskin print skirt. There were a lot of handsome firefighters and officers, but we all had masks on and had to stay 6 feet apart. That's okay, because all I can do is look anyway. My days of being cute enough for young men are long gone, boo. That's okay - my eyes still work.

This is a beautiful cactus flower in the neighbor's yard.

Speaking of cactus, I got two more little buddies to replace the ones that died. Yes, I am such a horrible gardener that I actually can kill cactus.

One of the ladies in our office gave me these beautiful hyacinths.

I also took the opportunity to refresh the front porch and the clump.

Above, a hot pink geranium, and below, a yellow daisy.

The porch is looking refreshed.

The famous Dutch door and the front porch.

The front yard clump also got spruced up, but it is so established that I just need to trim and fertilize it.

These beautiful flowers came from my front and back yards.

On April 24th, we began our heat wave. I wore one of the coolest dresses I own, a silk number by Bar III. I got these Michael Kors sandals at the after Christmas sales. They are great. I destroyed my tan wedge sandals from last summer, so I got replacements while the gettin' was good.

Then I spruced up the back yard. Most of the plants back there are mature, so they just need trimming and the occasional fertilizing.

I did cave in and get some flowers from Pavilions one day while I was out getting some necessities. They made me happy for $4.99.

Pandi is indeed a little princess. Her latest gig is to find the sun spot that comes through the top of the Dutch door and lay in it. She is adorable.

On April 27th, I wore one of my favorite dresses from Ivanka Trump. The devil is in the details - that little side drape with the gold zipper makes all the difference. Beside that, the material is very soft.

Our neighborhood cat, Gray Kitty, makes her appearance every day as she takes a short cut under my car. She goes up the street to get the food that one of the neighbors leaves out for her, and then goes down the street to the house without a dog, where she hangs out.

On April 28th, I wore a really cool skirt that I got at JC Penney several years ago . It is orange and navy and has zippers down both sides. On top, a white T shirt and a navy St John jacket. It is the same style as my black/pewter one, but it is navy with gold studs. I will take a close up of it later.

On April 29th, it was about 85 degrees at the beach. So I wore a muumuu from Bar III that I got in Fort Lauderdale a while ago. The shoes are Kenneth Cole. I have destroyed them - it is amazing how hard I am on my shoes. I have a bag full that are waiting to go to the cobbler when he reopens.

On April 30th, I wore a raw silk dress of unknown provenance. On top, the St John jacket again, because it gets cold at the office when the air conditioning is turned up because of the heat.

Then it got cooler again, so I wore a polyester kimono-inspired dress and black tights.

Then it got hot again, so I wore a beautiful botanical print tank from the American Cancer Society Discovery shop. I tried several different jackets and pants, and ended up with plain black slacks and an off white jacket from Theory.

On Wednesday, May 6th, I wore another one of my favorite and most comfortable outfits. The brown slacks are from Slinky Brand, and the tank top and swing jacket are from Antthony Designs. This set is embellished with beautiful sparkly sequins and the knit fabric is very soft.  I looked nice and was completely comfortable.

On Thursday, May 7th, I wore some very old peach colored jeans and a peach print swing tank. It was in the mid eighties here at the beach. I was very comfy and cool.

Well, this weekend is Mother's Day. Many months ago, I got tickets to Shen Yun. I was going to take my MIL, Mimi, but it was cancelled. I was offered another set of tickets for April 2021, but I opted for the refund. It was over $200, so I will decide again later. I have not seen my in-laws or my grandkids since January. So instead of Shen Yun, they wanted KFC, and a chocolate cake. We will leave the meal on their porch.

Let's hope that this ends soon, or I can come to terms with it. The last epidemic (Ebola) and the one before that (H1N1) didn't affect me as much as this. I guess it's because Ebola never really got here and H1N1 was at the start of my epidemiology career, and I had a lot more support then.

I have ordered a few things ( in order to stimulate the economy, yeah right) so when they arrive, I will do a quarantine fashion roundup. Stay tuned !!!